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Have you ever revisited a memory involuntarily?.

To be dragged back into the self that you were back then.

I realise I haven't looked in the mirror in a while

The emotions threaten to drown me if I don't pull myself back out but they do their damage nonetheless. One second I'm doing some sort of idle task and then I'm back into the void that is my mind. Less of a painted world and more of a torment nexus.

I realise I haven't taken a photo of myself in a while

Lately these feelings have reminded me of how I feel about the world. I am of the stars, my place is in the cosmos and in the wired. I am fundamentally incompatible with the real as it exists now, those who inhabit it don't see me. There are occasionally those with the eye to see me but that is few and far between.

I realise I haven't gone out and lived for a while.

Consequences of your actions usually come at a surprise, hindsight is 2020 after all, my disconnect from the real has been steadily growing. My mind may be tormented by the memories of the real but I can't and you shouldn't let it take you completely, too much medicine rots the mind. You need to live. I need to live.

I have rebuilt myself countless times, each time improving on the last. There'll always be faults in the machine but it is a cycle of improvement and development. Sometime improvements can become a detriment as things that may keep me safe no longer protect but drive away those close to me. Letting go of that is important, having the time to do the self reflection necessary is vital too.

The witch of Stardust and moonlight improves herself with etched runes, wires and even the void when it suits me. Find your ways to escape the maze of self too.